我叫埃米莉

The first half of the movie seems a bit of monotonous and boring, I can’t help being moved to tears at the end…

Emily is a middle school pupil lives in a foster family. All her schoolmates think Emily is a freak because she rarely speaks, is hard to get along with,offends the teacher, and even intentionally drowns herself once. Only Arden, a shy boy is always caught eyes on her by her mysterious temperament. Emily's biological mother died on one of her birthdays. Her biological father went crazy shortly after that and was institutionalized to the psych ward. Emily keeps in touch with her father through the birthday cards he sends her every year. When her father doesn't send a birthday card on her 16th birthday, Emily decides to take matters into her own hands. Enlisting Arden's help, she runs away, and the pair sets out on a road trip to break her father out of the psych ward.

I think Arden decides to help Emily for two reasons:

1. He likes her and her quiet character, shows kindness to her, sends a book as a birthday gift to her. Though Emily replies her coldness to Arden, treats him like the others.
2. The morning that Emily askes Arden, his parents were quarreling, and his father even had punched his head. Maybe he already has the idea of escaping from his parents in his mind for a long time, and just that morning, Emily gives him a sound reason and his grandmother also encourages him, providing everything he needs for their runaway.

Emily knows nothing about the second reason. She thought Arden maybe look more innocuous than the others; and maybe he is just interested in her skin and body, which is as shallow as the others. Yet Emily has no choice because she needs one's help in her plan of rescuing her father, and Arden is the only one she knows in that city.

As their journey progresses, Emily and Arden must depend on each other as they learn about life, love, loss, and letting go.

Emily's world collapsed suddenly when Mr. Goulding, the Director of the psych ward told her the fact. Her father was volunteered to stay here, not by any duress，which Emily can’t accept. How her father, the one she loves so much, could leave her behind as an orphan, letting her face the malevolence of the world alone as a 14 ages child. She doesn’t understand. She feels angry and grief so deeply. Mr. Goulding is very gentle and kind, tries to explain more, so Emily could be comforted. Even the reason sounds like a series of philosophical enlightenments.

Yet I like every word of those sayings from Mr. Goulding,

“I often think the world turns out inside, Emily. People send the ones of physically and mentally innocent to me.

Have you read Plato? He wrote a great piece of poem——the Allegory of the Cave.

All the people are sitting a row in the cave, staring at the shadow flaming on the wall. For them, the shadow's the reality. One man frees him out, and finds a path out to the light. He’s down on the sun, and he’s enlightened. This man walks back to the cave, back into the shadow, back to free people. This man who saw the light, instead of basking in it, returned to help the others, which is according to Plato. A philosopher, this man is your father.

The problem with the shipping people out of the darkness, is that the philosopher himself is blinded by the glared sun, or by grief, can loss the graben of what is the real, and what is the illusion.

This place is a cave for many people.”

This movie has a happy ending. Emily and Arden find her father in her grandfather’s sea house. Emily forgives her father, and she doesn’t mention any clue of those horrible foster experiences in the past two years. They make an agreement that her father, as a writer will live in the sea house, and Emily will go back to Mrs. Joan, a sort of nice foster mother lately.

There are so many beautiful Irish sceneries in the movie.

One more plot moved me into tears at the end. In her grandfather’s old sea house, Emily finally asks Arden why he would take those hardships and dangers to help her? For any shallow purpose? Arden goes angry and leaves Emily alone in the house. But later when Emily says to Arden that she doesn’t want to go back to the house because of the complain on her father, Arden says to Emily,

“We can leave anytime if you want.”

Emily replies to him this time, “Thanks for coming with me, Arden.” Arden smiles shyly and scratches his hair a little bit, and says “You’ve welcome.”

When they walk toward to the house where her father is in, and also the car of Arden parks, Arden holds Emily’s hand and says,

“Come on. Why not say something about me to your dad.” ——What avirtuousquality!!! The very first time, Emily willingly does as what Arden says.

I see little piece of heartfelt seen of pure emotion. Story takes turn and some seen are just not what you want or unnecessary, but this story strictly tells us that emotions of human beings may be complicated, and the reason for the complexity is just simple:

We pay so much effort or even a whole life, just want to see we are loved by the one who we love.

Emily has found she is loved by her father who she loves. How about ours?

少女艾米丽苍白美丽，转学到新的学校里格格不入。也许是她懂得太多，也许是太过独立，所有人都觉得她太怪了，人们把异于常人的事物统统称作“怪物”。少女艾米丽在学校里独来独往，在家里也是，会觉得收养她的养父母过于呱噪，给她带来沉重的负担。

然而生日的这天少女没有接到在精神病院里父亲的信，她断定爸爸出了事儿。过于悲痛得父亲在因为车祸中失去了妻子所以精神混乱。

举目无亲的艾米丽决定去救爸爸。她找不到同伴，只有一个少年曾几次跟她搭话。她决定请求他的帮助。少年阿尔丁刚在家里挨打，正准备出门，艾米丽来了，说你能现在跟我走去救爸爸吗。

阿尔丁望着这个他曾想要靠近的姑娘，正常人可能都会拒绝吧。毕竟这件事儿听起来真不可实现。去精神病院救人？凭我们两个人？现在出发？

艾米丽望着少年，少年犹豫不决。艾米丽转身就走了，甩着马尾辫走在人群里。少年转身对争吵的父母道别，说我要走了，然后冲出去追上了艾米丽。

这是让我最心动的一块儿。

我莫名相信你，所以来请求你的帮助。

我相信你，所以愿意陪你去做不可思议的事儿。

就像是月升王国里那么简单的一样。

年少啊，所以有满腔的热情。如果是大人会怎么样呢，大人会权衡利弊，会劝说你。不会这样说走就走。他们都太过于循规蹈矩，就像是以为事实就是真理，可事实不过是一种一部分人聚在一起决定好的一种观点。

后来影片就成为公路电影了，开着颜色艳丽而崭新的车。那车玻璃亮的比我刚买的新车都亮。开了好几天也不见有灰。音乐，美丽的风景，两个少年。

最后当然也见到爸爸啦。旅途最增加两个人的感情。彼此依靠，一起探险。

少女艾米丽回到了养父母的身边，与少年阿尔丁一起上学。而爸爸就留在海边看看风景写写书。

哲学家大部分都过于独立，也有些自私。艾米丽和她爸爸都有这一特点。

边缘电影，导演应该也是个意识流的人，整片很压抑，到最后他或许想给我们一种很完美，很开心的结局，但整部影片结束的时候我仍然很压抑。我其实从小就是个写字比较习惯于堆积词藻的哲学家语态，后来知道了要"现实"，但导演不是，能拍出这种东西的人就是艾米丽本人。艾米丽太独特了，与众不同，她从小被神经质的爸爸灌输着那些乱七八糟的哲学思想，她总在考虑世界和人群。她父亲没疯？她父亲早就疯了，脱光了衣服在大街上喊，自言自语分子草叶和灵魂，她父亲并不是超脱人世，她父亲是有心理疾病，他有病态的执念和并不成熟健康的心理承受能力，他就是个典型的现代诗人，他不想对任何事情负责任，包括女儿，心理脆弱的要用所有的爱保护他，不然就会崩溃，他麻痹自己，他并没有跳脱，他只是自己给自己建了个牢笼而已。 导演想讲公路，治愈和爱情？不是，他想讲哲学，他有些部分做的有些太过火了和矫情，于是他让男主角英雄救美了。男主角是个正常人，只是稍微思想有些诗意和边缘化而已，女主有些行为的确有些匪夷所思，她很自我，但真的很独特，我以前也是这样，但我没她的勇气。

导演所表达的一切都太隐喻了，他从不明白的说明他是什么意思，他想表达什么，他们并没有治愈！他们并没有成功！只是找到父亲了？找到父亲一切就迎刃而解了？并没有，为了边缘而边缘，这就是这部电影分不够高的原因，毕竟这是一部电影。

它并没有诗意，诗意不是这样的我保证，它只是想讨论一些东西，表达一个女孩痛苦而麻木不仁的心里状态而已，和一些导演想说的话。

我想说，它并不完美，如果导演想的再透彻一点，就不会有那么多废话在里面，精神病院院长说她父亲已经死了，她父亲是拯救苍生找寻真理的悲哀的救世主，她说这树这栏杆这城市都是忧郁的。这都是些什么？

如果他真的那么伟大，就不会离开她女二让一个14岁的孩子颠沛流离，如果他的智慧真的超脱格局，他就不会在大街上做那些格格不入甚至低俗不考虑他人感受的事情，连融入都无法做到，连让女儿上学都无法做到，他有什么资格阻拦别人的前途呢？

导演想说真理，但他成功的只有气氛。我很喜欢这里的几句话

很美…很聪明的一句话，还有这个镜头。

我觉得很漂亮。

它就像另一个说不清道不明的《去他妈的世界》。

其实我很迷恋这种气氛…要掉进去了…之前也很喜欢看这种不明不白的书，边缘并且有些病态的书，但是我长大了，并且这个有点太过了。

很神奇的是，这里面我只听到了两首歌(大部分我觉得很平庸的歌我跟没听到一样……看完这部电影我也想不起来……有时候甚至觉得没配乐……)，开车时一个女人抖着嗓子唱的歌，结尾时一个男的抖着嗓子唱的歌。我觉得很好听，歌词也很美。

最后我想说，他们那帮同学真的素质很低，这男主角长的真想尹正，女主角一家长的真是一模一样……

更：emm我刚刚查了一下，这个导演果然没火起来……

1、我太喜欢里面对一些感觉的表达了，开场艾米莉在浴缸里的那一幕十分吸引人。 “生活变化很快，就像幕后的山脉一样。有一天你醒来却不知道你是怎么到这里来的。然后你想，我睡了多久，我去了哪些地方，然而你什么都想不起来，所有的一切都与你上次醒来的时候不一样了。时间一年一年地过去，你非常明确地知道你将会死去。然后便出现了选择，继续睡觉，然后希望下次你醒来的时候，已经解决了这件事，而且也很开心。或者，你继续醒着，和这些差强人意的环境作斗争，去创造任何能够爱的东西。如果你躲避死亡，那么你就在躲避生活。” “街道总是延绵不断，但没有一条通往大海。游到最深处，下沉，下沉。游到最深处。”

“这个国家，城市，街道里都弥漫着悲伤。田地里和树林中也弥漫着悲伤。悲伤是无法隐藏的。失去我们所爱的人的事实，孤独的事实，事实只是观点而已。观点是可以改变的。” 2、事实是观点，因为大多数人都同意，所以观点才成为事实。也正因为事实是观点，所以事实也会改变。刘擎教授的《刘擎西方现代思想讲义》也提到尼采的视角主义。电影剧情的理解是：我们可以改变自己对生活的视角。通过重新构建视角，我们可以创造出新的事实。我们可以把自己视作一个人，一个人是孤独的。但我们也可以打开自己，把自己视作一个家庭的一份子，重新理解家人对我们的伤害，也可以构建新的关系，我们可以重新与爱链接。 3、影片里的父亲自顾不暇，所以“抛弃”了女儿。不由得想起我自己的经历。《当下的力量》这样理解父母带来的伤害：因为他们活在无意识里，他们活在思维里，而不是自己的本质里，所以他们受限于此，没有主动选择。对于他们的这种痛苦，唯一合适的反应是慈悲。也正是因为活在思维里，我们才会互相伤害。我不知道，未来是否能做出一些不一样的选择，来自于我的本体的。

4、关于里面的男友。我认为只是青春期的懵懂爱情，不是来自大人的成熟选择。但我很喜欢，一个人从封闭，到进入关系，融入爱情的这个过程。是我向往的。

如果我是个男孩，如果我有一辆车，我要带着让我心动的那个女孩去环岛，她会有一双狡黠的眼睛，像一只漂亮的流浪猫。海风下她的头发像水里的海藻。她会看着我的眼睛讲很多话，我会安静地听，但偶尔脑袋里也会思考，她的皮肤摸起来会不会像是慕斯蛋糕。也许我会脱下她的裙子，但绝不是在那晚。在日出时，我们的孤独手牵着手，一起走向大海深处。